Good Bye Mother

I don’t share about my mother too often but I dreamed about her last night and I feel compelled.

I remember that day that I got the call

I remember my slow walk through the hall

I remember a nurse saying, “This is the end”

But my mind was not going to allow this to win

I entered the room as everyone cleared out

I looked upon you and held in a shout

There you lay all fragile and ill

But just yesterday you were happy and real

I could not understand what was going on

Then you said, “I chose to go home.”

Tears filled my eyes as I looked at you

I begged you to tell me what to do

You said there was nothing that could be done

It’s time to leave here, what’s done is done

Not once in my life had I seen you give up

But there you were slowly closing up

You chose to stop fighting after all these years

I don’t know why, but I could see your fear

I watched you lay there and take your last breath

And I watched you slowly slip into death

My heart broke into a million pieces

And I ran as fast as my legs would race

I felt my heart broken solidly in half

I knew right then I had lost my path

I’ve struggled so long just to make sense

Then one day I felt your presence

I knew in that moment that you were not gone

It was not a good bye, just a so long

I feel you here all the time

Snuggled in my heart is where I find

That pain is still their some where

But your love has made it easier to bare

I watched you go that terrible day

But that won’t be the last time I see your face